It's a circle; a mean cycle.

I keep forgetting that this blog exists, and then when I read it after a while I get inspired to maintain it. It's like a cycle or something.

 So I've started my honours year, and it has already taken over my life. That happened a lot sooner than I expected. The good thing is, I thought I would be miserable this year and feel overwhelmed with all the work. I feel neither of those. I'm quite content, and sure it's a lot of work, but I'm coping! It hasn't swallowed me...yet.

 One important thing that I was really afraid of this year was that I was going to lose myself. I knew that pretty much all other aspects of my life would have to come to a stand still, and I can see that they have. But I never wanted to lose myself. I didn't want to become so caught up in my work that I forgot about myself; my essence I suppose. Sure, I love genetics and I do find it interesting, but that's not all there is to me. I've been listening to a tonne of music lately, and I feel like that has kept me grounded; helped me to maintain myself I suppose. It's only the beginning of what is going to be a tough year, and I'm going to try really hard to not lose myself. I'm going to try and listen to as much new music as I want to, play the piano/guitar a few times a week and attend lots of gigs! The last thing I want is for me to be so engulfed in my work that it becomes all there is to me. I see people in the lab like that and I wonder, sure, what you do is a huge part of your life and it's perfectly fine to reflect that in your personality, but don't let work become who you are! I don't know, it's just really important to me.

I feel so happy with myself I guess. Well, not "happy" with myself. But there are certain aspects about me that I like. I like the fact I like music, I like that I watch cartoons, I like that I draw random things all the time. I feel like if I stop doing those things, I'm not going to be me anymore, and rather some robot. A robot that knows A LOT about Drosophila.

 Anyway, I shall end my rant there. This is Paramore's newest song:



It's quite poppy, a little bit of an indie pop vibe, but I like it. Probably because it's Paramore. But if I were to listen to their whole album, this would probably be one of my least favourite songs. But given the context, I like it! But, I much rather the first song they released:



Loved it the first listen in China airport haha! If this is an accurate representation of the new album, then BOY I am in for a treat!