I'm a hypocrite.

Hi everyone

I feel liking blogging right now, but I have nothing to blog about! Looks like it's gonna be one of those boring posts.

So today I started packing all my stuff for the big move, which is due to happen in approximately 19 days! As I was going through all my old stuff, I found some things that made me laugh, and even made me get a bit teary! I never realised how much poems I used to write back in the day, and some of the poems are really deep for a 12 year old!! I don't even remember what the poems were about, but it sounded like I was going through a rough time, good thing that's not the case anymore. I also was quite the artist, well, not really, cause all my drawings were awful, but I found SO MUCH! So I have come to the conclusion that i used to be really creative, and then high school ruined it all. I mean nowadays, I would never be able to write a poem so pure to the heart, or draw something direct from the imagination without being influenced by other things. It kinda sucks, I am in awe of my 12 year old self.

I now realise that its really important to stay true to what you are really passionate about, don't do things cause society deems other things to be "better" for you. Do what you love, and don't let anything else get in your way. I guess I am a hypocrite for saying this, but I don't want anyone else to make the same mistake. I should have stuck with art, done music, even though the teachers sucked. But no, I followed what everyone else thought was the more intelligent choice, one that would be better for my future.

Don't get me wrong, I am grateful for doing science, this is God's plan for me i guess. But I don't get the same joy out of it like I do with music and drawing. Sure, I am not good at those things, and I wouldn't be able to make a decent living out if them, so I guess this is why my life is how it is. But perhaps if I stuck with those things, I would have become better....

No point in dwelling in the past, but one can look forward to the future!! 2nd December, 9am is the date and time Paramore tickets go on sale!! I need not worry, cause I will be prepared to buy them, so I should be able to get tickets, I feel so stupid for being so paranoid before!

Okay, so I guess this post wasn't THAT boring!

See you on the flip side

- Jade