Scary...

My Aunty is getting married soon, which is TOTALLY EXCITING cause she's my favourite aunty haha. Problem is, she lives in Sri Lanka. I can hear my parents talking about plans to go there for the wedding, which is so awesome! But the thing is, I probably won't be able to go because of uni. They want to go for two weeks, and I simply can't afford to miss that much of uni, especially with the labs and things like that.

But they ARE planning to have the wedding during june/july..which I know is when mid semester break falls. But even that is only one week. So I'd either have to travel to or from there by myself, that's IF the wedding falls within that week. Also, I'd have to be alone by myself in the house for the other week.

Staying at home by myself and travelling alone doesn't bother me in the slightest. At least that's what I have always thought. But not travelling with my family has suddenly gotten me very scared. And it's because I have a fear that if something happens on that flight...I'll be gone. And i've always felt safe travelling with them because if something ever happened, we all went down together. But if something only happened to me...I'm never going to see them again. And that scares the crap out of me.

It also works the other way. If I am at home by myself, and something happens to them on the flight, I'll still be by myself and I'll never see them again. Goodness me, that scares me so much.

I know it's something that eventually I am going to have to face, the whole travelling/staying at home by myself thing. But the thought of never seeing those 3 people again...I can't even handle it.

I don't really know what the purpose of this post is...I guess it just got me thinking about grim things :/